I don’t want to do this, Lord
Please don’t make me go
I’m so scared to be alone
With people I don’t know

I’d really like to run and hide
And forget about it all
Life is so much easier
When you’re not listening to the call

I want to keep doing what I do
Without the big huge change
I don’t want to be uncomfortable
I don’t like feeling so strange

You know the terror that I feel
You know the fear in me
I don’t want to disappoint You
But I don’t know how else to be

So I guess that I will just depend
On the strength there is in You
I hope You can help me find some way
To trust You to get me through

Composition Date: April 14th, 2009

Holli’s Notes:
Emmaus Walk Collection II

I wrote this when I was coming up on my Emmaus Walk. I’d never been away from home without some member of my family before, and quite honestly, I didn’t want to go. This was a cry to God for some courage in the face of fear.

About Holli Swank

Holli Swank has been writing for more than twenty years and finds great joy in sharing her deep faith in God through her poems. She is the mother of three children and has been married for almost 18 years. She also loves spending time with her two cats. Holli was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis in mid-2013, giving her a unique perspective for her poetry.